Im so fed up of everything help?

hi, i know no one wants to hear me go on an on but im so fed up at the moment well actually its all the time, i have depression and anixety problems and at the moment i just feel dead! I feel like everyone hates me an even when they say they dont i dont believe them! I hate most things now and i feel i shouldnt be living anymore i dont have anyone i can turn to or talk to and i just want to end it all! I tried counselling but its not working and ive tried taking anti depressants but i wanted to be happy on my own if you get me and now i dont know what to do? i feel like i will never be happy again! please help!